Warning! This individual is totally able to reserve their opinions and not have it affect how they treat you. They are fully able to be decent, even kind towards you , all the while still having the full impression that you may be a complete idiot… and you will never now any different.

This has become a defence mechanism for me. I wish people were more thoughtful about what they say, how they say it, and really think about things. I wish they explored what they believe, and dissected it accordingly.

Truth is, I have times where I feel overly emotional too, but I don’t find the release in lashing out that others seem to. It just makes me feel worse, and I don’t feel like its worth trying to give people the benefit of the doubt when they’ve proven time and time again that it is beyond them.  I’ve gotten to the place where I can’t bring myself to contribute in conversations. I simply can’t participate. 

I don’t have the energy for clever comebacks, I don’t have the energy to beg people to be any different than they are, and so that means I can’t bring myself to play those games.

I know from the outside it must look like I don’t care, but the reality is I have gotten to the point where I have to turn the filter on to save my own sanity. I care, but I can’t be wasting my time anymore on people who plain don’t want to find inspiration to be any better than they are, or those who have stunted their own growth by believing they have nothing left to learn. 

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