Updates 8/23/10

So its been over a month since my last update. To be honest its been crazy and I just haven’t felt up to posting anything.

*Spoiler Alert* Probably not an upbeat post, and definitely a little emotional and tired, and a bit of an over share,  so keep that in mind if you decide to read any farther.  From this point on, it may even be a bit whiny I realize, as I know there are people in far worse situations that would laugh or roll their eyes at this, but know that I vent so I can bounce back.

Deon got his MRI back a while ago. This time around it seems that they have finally identified what is going on.  The problem seems to stem from some narrowing in some areas of his upper spine. Not sure what will come of it yet. He will probably be going to OHSU if it becomes unbearable again.  After having a quick conversion with someone up there, he has opted to wait to go see them as the pain is manageable at the moment. The issue I see is that it takes two weeks to see someone, so if it acts up worse, it will be two weeks later before he can be looked at. I know he’s just not wanting to create any more bills than he has to.

My left eye had been getting better. I had been back to around 78 %, but I did too much or something because last week I had a day where I ended up having a horrible headache and it kind of got worse again.  I’m  frustrated. On the bright side, today does seem to be a little better than yesterday, so hopefully it was just a small set back that will clear back up more as time goes on. Trying to stay positive.

I received my 2nd bill for my MRI that I had at the end of June. I was kind of excited when I got my first one and it said my portion was a little under three hundred dollars.  I rearranged some things, and got it paid, and was kind of hoping that would have been all of it. I know that I definitely should not have even considered that to be the end of it.   My initial guess of $2000.00 after insurance was sadly a quite bit under the actual mark, and will actually end up being closer to double that.. Odd when you owe less on your car, then the cost of a single medical test.  I’ll call this new hospital and get something worked out so I can start chipping away at it. Praying that they end up being nice and allowing me to make a manageable payment that will go towards both Deon & my bills.  We don’t yet know what his total is either. I really dislike owing money, it makes me feel so bad. The last time I owed this much for a doctor bill, it took me three years to pay it. The other hospital wasn’t willing to take payments over time, and sent me to collections even though I was making monthly payments, all because I couldn’t fulfill a big enough chunk of it within 90 days. Had to work out a payment plan with collections group  and honestly we would of had another 3/4 of a year except we ended up  getting taxes back this year and used it to get paid off.

I’ve always been a believer in personal responsibility, and that you have to be your own advocate when it comes to your health, but its becoming increasingly evident why people put medical things off.   I now kind of wish we had waited on my MRI, especially since it just ended up saying things were ok. Hind sight is 20/20 I suppose. An odd saying to use I guess,  since it was actually my eye that kind of convinced me to go ahead and have the MRI done because I was scared..  ironic huh?  I think I would have rather spent the money getting something further figured out for Deon.  He’s frustrated because its been a year, and he’s still not working, and in honesty at this point I don’t know what he could do. Sometimes the simplest action will make his shoulders swell up. He definitely can’t go back to anything he had previously done. We both are a bit lost in figuring out what could or should be next. I just hope nothing further pops up for awhile, one can only pray I guess.